We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Inosculation

from Inosculation by Colour in the Clouds

/

lyrics

one day i looked out from the window
saw those trees in the yard
they had fallen apart
their skin was broken and scarred
and their rings were young and few
and they looked just like you

and i thought that i'd be strong enough
to say exactly what i wanted
it's been long enough
but i can't keep what i want fucking straight
so i built these walls
of metaphors and cliches
silently hoping they'd fall
and i'd break

there's so much left to learn
and our lesson proved my worth
and i'm so hesitant in separation
and in what we learned

fighting against
their torturous roots
hoping to find a way
to speak the truth
and i don't know why that would help
but i just wish
i could write something about you
that didn't make me hate myself

so far from you, i know
i don't want to pretend
that i have found out how
to get passed this

and were you blinded
by desperation
i know i was nothing
but did i
cause your collapse
or was i just a part of it

and i hope the wall break
and you find these poems
scratched in the paint
they're not direct
so they feel safe
they're insecure
but they fit
and i'd rather have them
than try to live without
happiness

so far from you, i know
i don't want to pretend
there i have found out how
to get passed this

and i know
closing the door
means leaving these questions unanswered
it means not caring enough
it means giving up
on what i call love

and i'm so sick
of the sound of my own voice
and the pressure that i put
on every single choice
to make sure that i'm heard
to make sure that these words feel right
and i just want to leave behind
something meaningful
something beautiful
it's never felt right
but sometimes i wish you had had that child
maybe then
i wouldn't feel so fucking empty
inside

collapse my lungs
force the air out of my chest
until i breath out slow
and until i forget
you will know
i haven't got anything yet
but these words and these moments
i'm wishing for the best
that the scar of our inosculation
won't define the days
that i have left

credits

from Inosculation, released July 31, 2020

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Colour in the Clouds image

Colour in the Clouds

emo influenced post-hardcore

calgary, AB
+
vancouver, BC

contact / help

Contact Colour in the Clouds

Streaming and
Download help

Shipping and returns

Redeem code

Report this track or account

If you like Colour in the Clouds, you may also like:

Bandcamp Daily  your guide to the world of Bandcamp

On Bandcamp Radio

Featuring Riley Pinkerton (aka The Rat Queen) from the theatrical NYC rockers, Castle Rat.
listen now